Wishcasting Wednesday: Movtivate

Today is Wishcasting Wednesday!!!  And since I’m trying to keep up with my blog, I want to answer today’s question:  What do you wish to have?


There are so many ways to answer this question.  In fact, as I’m typing I have no clue what I do wish to have…  I have a wonderful husband, a beautiful daughter, and a job that allows me to be a mother to her….

I”VE GOT IT!!!

Motivation, I wish to have motivation.  You know those people that can get out of bed during the summer break and go non-stop until they go to bed and by the end of the day they’ve built and entire castle, decorated said castle, and had their first ball in the ballroom of said castle all before noon so they can take a leisurely swim in the moat in the afternoon all to get antsy and go run a marathon?

Yeah, I’m married to one of those people and I often wish to have that kind of self-motivation.  I guess I should stop using excuses and get my butt out of bed sooner so that I have more hours in the day to use…  That and get unaddicted to the internet again….  Neither of which sound too terribly appealing.  But, self-motivation, I can work on that.  Maybe the motivation is there, but the discipline I am lacking….  Who knows.

Hey, I’m blogging again, that’s a step in the getting my soul back and getting motivated direction….  We will see.

Story of Humanity

It’s Wishcasting Wednesday!  I’m trying to get back in the habit of writing regularly, so I figured that even though it’s late on Wednesday, I should still participate.  And what a week to get back in the saddle.  Here is this week’s question:

What story do you wish to live or let go of?

Where does a person start with that question?  It has so many levels and depths to it, just reading the question.  And as I sit here and think about it, I don’t know which layer to reveal.  I think for tonight, both the living and the letting go take me to my ministry.  I don’t like to refer to it as a job, because it is so much more than that.  If it was only a job I would have quit a long time ago.

So the living  part…
I want to live the story of a disciple.  Maybe the story of St. Peter who was out fishing all day and caught nothing and had the guts to listen to a man who told him to cast the net on the other side.  And low and behold, he caught so many fish that his net busted.  To have that faith.  To just follow that man with no strings attached, that’s the story I want to live.  Or maybe the story of the woman, known as a sinner, who showed up and washed Jesus’ feet with her hair and perfume and didn’t care what other people thought.  She knew who she was, and she knew who Jesus was, and she acted and lived on that.  THAT is the story I want to live.  I want to live as a person of faith, as a person who continually tries to show other people the faith, as a person madly in love with my Creator, and letting that love shine.

Actually trying to live that story is another matter, but that’s where the letting go comes in.  The story I want to let go of, I want to let go of my humanity.  I want the divine to shine through.  Although impossible, that’s what I would like to let go of.  Of course, I think that’s why we even need faith.  It helps us to reconcile our humanity to the divine.  It allows us to experience the divine why we are stuck in these mortal bodies, to go beyond the realms of this world, to realize that through our humanity we get to encounter the divine.  And there, I have talked that into a complete circle.  Maybe I don’t need to let go of my humanity, but embrace it.  To love it and to acknowledge that with my humanity I get to experience the divine.

So, there’s my wish for this week.

To live the story of a broken soul slowly learning to accept my humanity to encounter my God.

Growing in 2010

2010 is here.  Life is flying by, but it’s amazing.  And here I am at a loss for words because I just don’t know where to start.  So much has gone on in the past few weeks, spiritual growth, growth in family, in my faith in people.  Faith in myself.  


So maybe I should start with my goal of being Intentionally Passionate as the year progresses.  I haven’t been as good at focusing on that as I could be, however, I do find myself applying more of myself to the different aspects in life.  I want the kids in Levelland, particularly those at St. Michael’s to know the love of Jesus in ways that they never could have imagined.  And yet, I hold myself back.  However, I want you all to know that this is changing.  My priest got a hold of me during a meeting and really made me realize that I can do so much more.  And he gave me total permission and support to do whatever needs to happen within the youth to help them grow and fall in love with their faith.  So, God has heard my voice in wanting to be more intentional, more passionate and He is giving me no choice but to step up and act on it.  How good is our God?  I’m not saying it’s going to be easier, in fact, I have this constant inner turmoil going on in which I’m battling the lazy out of my bones.  Seriously.  I just want to sit and do nothing, but how is that building up the Kingdom?  Yeah, it doesn’t, so here’s to 2010 and a year of passionate explorations into the unknowns that I’ve been too scared to dive into.  Here’s to learning how to make things happen.  Here’s to growing in love and in faith.