I have found something new to put my time and attention towards. (You know those few spare moments I can find here and there.) So, because I am absolutely and completely insane, I have joined a huge group of absolutely and completely insane people over at NaNoWriMo. We will all be attempting to write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days time from November 1 to November 30. INSANE!!! But, I am actually really really really really excited about it and I keep having to stop myself from writing (the rules state that you can’t begin until the 1st).
What is it going to be about, you ask? Well, here goes…
I’ve always enjoyed writing thoughts down, sharing them here and there with others, and really letting my brain go into a philosophical dive from time to time. But, every time I’ve tried to write fiction, I just can’t seem to let the characters take over to tell the story. Lately Wade and I have been really trying to actively grow in our faith, meditating on talks and reading the Catechism and Scripture. Through all this, an idea emerged that has completely taken over my heart and soul. It really started when I was pregnant with Ev.
The one question I have continually asked myself has been, “I wonder if Mary went through this with Jesus.” With everything involving motherhood I have thought this, did Mary have morning sickness? did Mary have heartburn? was Jesus born with hair if she did? did Mary just want to sit in a hot bath all day to take the soreness from her back? how did Mary sooth Jesus when he was teething? did she have trouble nursing him at all?
I bet I think these thoughts several times a day. And then it always leads me to reflect on Jesus’ life in a different way. Seriously, Jesus came to us as an infant. He had to learn to walk and talk like we did. And eat pureed fruit for the first year of His life.
One of the speakers Wade and I enjoy a lot (Matthew Kelly) spoke about Mary and motherhood in general. He said, “Nobody sees a child’s life like his mother. Even his father.” He goes on to talk about how we should all want to enter into the Heart of Mary to reflect on Jesus’ life. Which leads me to my attempt at a novel.
I want to truly enter into the heart of Mary to reflect on Jesus’ life. And I want to share it with whoever will join me. Most people who participate in NaNoWriMo spend October researching and outlining their stories. So, I have been spending my month trying to enter into Mary’s heart and soul, reading all I can and thinking about Jesus’ life from her eyes. I hope you are as excited as I am for November to roll around to see where this meditation takes us. But for now, I will leave you with a reflection I had the other day. Keep in mind that it is a very rough draft and by no means a completed work. However, I hope that it leaves you wanting more!!!
Wedding at Cana
“I know that my son’s time is drawing near. My heart and soul can feel the times changing. I’m not ready to give my Son to the world, but as God wills it, so it will be. The wedding feast is next week and I am very excited for the celebration, but I am sad in seeing Jesus start His ministry. I’m sad to see it start because I don’t want it to end. He doesn’t quite realize that His time is drawing near, but He soon will. After all, He is the Son of God….”
I can’t wait to really explore these thoughts, and I hope you are ready for this journey come November!!! I will post tidbits as I write them!!!!